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Natal Saturn in Leo (5th House) Generation 🐬✨

Saturn in Leo/5th House can be a particularly difficult placement yet an enlightening one none the less. First thing’s first, your inner child might be extremely deprived of joy & comfort due to either early life circumstances or even past life experiences. You might feel the heaviness of your inner wounds as time passes by, especially in your adulthood. Due to numerous reasons, both known and unknown, you might feel depleted and neglected deep within, you can feel a huge void of loneliness. As a result, you might feel restricted to love, find acceptance, be recognized & appreciated in life. Sometimes, you might catch yourself treating others badly even when you love them just the way you often treat yourself unkindly. There may be deep sorrow and anguish that seem to be hidden behind a confident mask which is very fragile. 

Even if you were born in a loving & secure household you might still feel like you are unworthy of anything good in your life. These are some of the most unfortunate feelings to harbor within oneself, but it can be even tougher to deal them as well. You might have to dig deep within to face your inner wounds and nurse them with love. Since, you might have a harsh tone towards yourself, your self-talk may be negative, or you might not even recognize how you might be treating yourself poorly. Self-love may be a foreign concept with this placement, you might imitate the love you received from your parents, friends, etc. or you might think that you are doing just fine, but there could be many other ways you may be sabotaging and depriving yourself of self-love. 

That’s one of the most interesting things about this Saturn placement, since, it often goes unnoticed, sometimes even masked behind what you think is right. So, a lot of introspection is essential to deal with such self-confidence issues. It is quite crucial that you recognize your own self-sabotaging patterns, be it over-confidence, arrogance, impatience, impudence or lacking self-confidence, allowing toxic people/situations to take advantage of your kindness, not standing up for yourself, etc. There may be many such subtle yet loud signs that are hiding in your self-expression and behavior, which you will have to carefully deal with since it concerns your inner child.

Your ability to express yourself may be majorly impaired (especially if you grew up in a restrictive household). As a result, your creative side might be suffering from lack of self-confidence as well. You might hold back from having fun or do the exact opposite if you are masking your low self-esteem, you might have a lot of fun throwing responsibilities aside but suffering deep with from guilt and discontent. You might often feel that you deserve no happiness or satisfaction, since you feel that luck is not always on your side or that bad things seem to happen all the time. You might however realize your true potential is hidden in your creativity. 

You will have to face insecurities and feelings of inadequacy in order to cross the obstacles that are in front of you. But you will understand just how invaluable your inner world truly is since you have a big heart that is kind & knows what love is through pain & disappointments. You might feel emotionally distant to others even to your loved ones. Your romantic side may be hidden from the rest of the world, and you might prefer to keep your love life as private as possible. You might feel unappreciated by your loved ones often due to the emptiness you feel within. Your partner(s) can sense the emotional distance and feel unloved as well.

You might have experienced disappointments in relationships due to a lack of clear communication, expression of feelings, misunderstandings, etc. You might have even encountered those who tried to take advantage of your insecurities, or you might have been in toxic relationships (with other challenging placements or aspects, this may be vice versa, where you could have toxic traits and not know how to love others in a healthy way, possibly even manipulate others’ feelings, etc. So, care must be taken in recognizing any such red flags from others & yourself). These experiences may have prompted you to turn to self-love since only the love you have for yourself can prevent others with such motives from hurting your heart. 

You might even have to be careful not to fall victim to attention seeking behaviors since your need to be recognize might tempt you to overcompensate for others’ dismissive attitude or over exaggerate your true feelings. You will have to find the right balance between being liked and not caring about others’ opinions about you. Since, your self-esteem alone can help you find the appreciation that you truly deserve from the right people. Your karmic duty with this Saturn placement will be to always remain authentic to your true self, treat others and yourself with love & compassion all while embracing fun & happiness.

You might see parenting as a duty, but that attitude alone might make things harder for you to handle since much like romance & socializing, parenting also involves expressing one’s true feelings without restrictions. So, with children, pets, etc. you might find it particularly challenging to fully understand their needs & desires if your inner child already feels restricted. You might find that you are breaking your inner child free through much needed self-love and child-like self-expression. Kids and pets may then become a major part of your life teaching you while simultaneously learning from you. Saturn might sometimes bind you to kids or pets in some way, like teaching, day-care, baby-sitting, coaching, etc. If not even as your own children/pets to raise & care for them. 

You might have to deal with difficult circumstances, often questioning your own self and finding deeper insights as a parent/caretaker. When with younger people/kids/pets, you might be able to understand more about yourself and also learn how to better socialize with others. You might have to be careful however not to become an extremely strict/doting parent since you might come off as controlling/obsessive which can eventually ruin the precious relationship with your kids. Saturn’s placement in a sign or (especially) house can often indicate where you can find your career path & life purpose (along with North Node & MC placements). So, Saturn in Leo/5th house might indicate a successful career in arts, creative fields, film industry, theatre, dancing, music, sports, teaching, coaching, fitness, etc. 

You see your creative talents as a personal responsibility and so you take them seriously. You might also see your hobbies as something that must make you productive, yet relaxing and having fun is crucial with this placement. Since only through an open-heart space can you access your creativity, and so depriving yourself of fun can severely damage your self-expression. This placement can prove to be challenging since your experiences and pessimistic outlook on life may affect your mental health severely leading to depression or other serious issues. 

Self-love, allowing yourself to have fun, experience the lighter & brighter side of life, enjoying the small things, developing your sense of humor, collecting happy memories, making positive connections, indulging in your creative side & hobbies, etc. will be vital to yourself/character development. Saturn will force you to face your own insecurities in order to heal your inner child. Although with time & maturity, you will realize how rewarding the journey of self-discovery & healing is with this placement, you will be able to embrace yourself with all your greatness & faults, just as others who recognize & love you for who you are.   

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